Displeasing me

I live in fear

Of being Me

Of letting myself be

Who I want to be.

I live my life

Through others rules

I cannot do

What I want to do.

I cannot teach

How I want to teach

I cannot speak my mind.

None of this is about anyone else

People do not censor me

I am allowed to dress my way

I am allowed to say what I want to say.

I cannot do these things I want

It is an internal failing.

So strong I hate to displease

That I end up displeasing me.