I woke up shattered still. My brain felt like tired eyes – all dry and gritty. I decided to walk to the closer train station and then I could catch the earlier train and not have to rush to work. I did manage 20 push ups before I stood under a hot shower, washed my hair and attempted to feel more human.
My classes all have exams today so I need to be able to assist my students. Exams are always exhausting – tyring to get the best out of my students. Anyway I promised myself that I would at least walk to work from Caboolture – In fact I bribed myself with a hot chocolate (even though it was a warm day already).
It was definitely a slower walk but the timber mill was not cutting timber today so I could smell the eucalyptus on the morning air – very pleasant. I walked the distance of 3.11 km in 41 minutes which was actually quicker than the previous time – even though I was rushing previously. My shins felt it. The second and third kilometers were the fastest. I don’t know about the last one – the traffic lights near the school take forever to change.
One of my friends was back at work today, having taken a couple of days to cope with the news of our student’s death. She was very close to him – he used to come to the staffroom and call her Aunty. She is still so raw, I don’t have a clue how she managed it. She has been through so much already – none of which is my story to tell but this – this may actually break her. It was so hard sitting beside her today. I am still so saddened and exhausted over all of this but for me – part of it is actually being at school. Our free dress day was for our student so every where I turned, I was reminded of him today. Harsh as it is – I am looking forward to the weekend where I can escape from the greif but then I am fully aware that my friend will never escape and I don’t know how to help her and I don’t ever wish to be any closer to that situation than a friend. And that is hard to write but I am pretty sure – the honest truth for everyone.
Tomorrow I will go for a walk in the local area – might even fit in a jog somewhere in the walk. It is at least a weekend.
Fastest kilometer – 12 mins 39 seconds
Slowest kilometer – 13 mins 39 seconds
Distance today – 3.11km