You have a daughter

Horrific

Pain

time stopped

life unwanted now

you lost

can’t comprehend

understand

yet helpless

your heart beats

yet your son’s stopped

frozen

pain

want to end it

eating breathing

It’s all irrelevant

yet you have a daughter

you have to live

you have to take that next breath

you have to force food down

you have a daughter

you have to live

your partner

the same feelings as you

your rock

too much pain – just like you.

You have a daughter

you have to live

yet your son was stolen

way way way too soon.

For N – even if I never give this to you N because the pain is so much and I don’t want to hurt you any more. You are such an amazing person, you welcomed me and made me a friend. I feel your pain and I don’t have a clue what to say.